"And I know when you are younger, the road looks straight and simple, but there're way more ups and downs than you can tell."
There were parts of the year I genuinely liked, but to be very honest, I wouldn't say I like 2025.
I thought the first half was already messy and heavy enough. After finally recovering, I really believed things were settling back into place, yet I didn't realize the second half was actually the beginning of the real storm.
People I never expected to lose so soon, a sickness that left me drained physically, mentally and emotionally, and may have traumatized me for quite a while, there were moments I hated it all and moments I completely broke down. "I have God, I'll be okay", was the prayer I repeated most. Home, and knowing there were still people I wanted to see, was what made me hold on.
But God never disappoints. Through every obstacle and rock bottom, I began to see small signs of hope. I truly believe even that one blind box where I happened to get what I wanted felt like the start of something good, and it was, followed by a second, a third, and I believe more to come. I guess this is what God wanted me to learn, you can't rush, everything is in His plan, all you can do is wait and trust that you'll be okay. No matter how much I disliked this year, God still left me with a grateful heart and made me realize how truly blessed and loved I am.
"Don't rush. Slow down. Appreciate the people and moments around you even more", that's how I would sum up my 2025, and something I will remind myself wherever I go. I believe God will only make us stronger through what we survive.
赠我一场病，又慢慢痊愈摇风铃；
赠我一场空，又渐渐填满真感情。
It's good to be alive.
It's good to be singing again.
And most of all, it's good to be breathing again. ❤️
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I don't hate you, 2025, but you were a difficult year, full of challenges, changes and learning. You showed me that life can change in the blink of an eye and taught me to trust myself more. But, above all, you made me understand that my health, whether physical, emotional or mental, is what really matters.
Not every question demands an immediate answer, and not every ending is a loss.
You showed me that there are moments when nothing moves because nothing can.
So no, I don’t hate you, but I won’t forgive you either, at least not yet. You dragged me through truths I didn’t want to face, through loss I wasn’t ready to feel. You left me with wounds that haven’t closed, with breaks that haven’t settled into anything I can understand. I don’t see light pouring in, not yet.
You didn’t come to fix me or redeem me. You came to strip away the illusion that life is anything but unpredictable, relentless, and brutally honest. You didn’t rebuild me; you left me with the choice to do it myself.
So, thank you, 2025. You were not easy, but you were necessary.
#2025EndingsandBeginnings
#Farewell2025
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